Moving Along

Well...Thursday I fell 3 times...scared the heck out of me.  Scraped my knee and pulled something in my thigh, but other than that, no injuries.

My cleaning lady came yesterday, and together we packed some boxes, swept most of the living room and got rid of a lot of trash.  I tossed everything I didn't need or didn't mean anything to me.

Now I need to start on the area around my desk...sigh.

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and could barely stand, much less walk. My legs were like jelly and mentally I kept phasing out.  I got proof later as I 'went away' while eating pudding (the proof was on my garments).

So, I have to call both my regular doctor and my psychiatrist on Monday.  I'm afraid to call the crisis line because they might hospitalize me for observation.

This morning I seem fine, so, I'll see if I have the same problem tonight.

I'm also having a problem with my eyes, they've gone all smeary and I'm having trouble reading.  Can't read my lease at all have to wait til Kat gets here and have her read it.

I'm really frustrated by these particular problems, as not seeing is a major problem, especially as I learn to navigate a new city.  And, if my legs keep going to jelly at night, what happens if it expands to day time?

Anyway, mentally, I'm doing well, and I'm happy, so that's a good thing.

I'm going to treat Paul to dinner and a movie for helping me move He's so good to me. He's the one who helped me move to Chicago 7 years ago.  He's been my friend for 15 years, and he's always had my back.

Bad Day

It started this morning when I knocked over my cereal bowl and it landed on my laptop. I got milk all over my computer, inside and out. Right now I'm waiting for the keyboard to dry. Then I got on the computer for a few minutes.  When I got up, I tripped over one of my shoes and fell and scraped my leg and twisted my bad knee. Thankfully this time I was able to get up, my legs weren't as shaky as the last time I fell ( I spent 4 1/2 hours on the floor before I got to my phone.

I needed to do laundry so I bagged a load and headed to the laundry room which is at the end of our building.  I fell again just before I hit the concrete ramp.  One of the ladies I know was looking out her window and saw me fall, she came out and asked if she could help me get up, she's in her 70's and I probably would have pulled her down with me.  Well I managed to get up and she insisted on carrying my stuff.  Well, the laundry room was about 20 feet away so I just said thank you.

In the laundry room I was having trouble balancing.  I fell again, thankfully into a chair.

I'm absolutely exhausted, and I only did one load, so much for getting all my laundry done today.

I'm hoping nothing else happens today.

Feeling Better

My migraine is down to a 2 or 3...which lowers it to the level of annoyance.  My Dr gave me some new migraine meds Fioricet  and Phenergan.

I printed out my change of address cards today.  I used the paper that was supposed to be for invitations for my sealing.  It hurt, but it made sense not to waste the paper.

I'm doing pretty well emotionally.  I have accepted the reality that it just didn't work out.  I miss him, but when he last texted me, I didn't cry.

I'm looking forward to Monday when Kat arrives.  Working together for two weeks will help us get to know each other better.  Lori is coming Friday to help me organize things enough that there's a place for Kat to sleep.

Paul is coming up Friday night with his son-in-law, so we can pack early Saturday morning.

I don't know yet what Social Security is going to do about having a payee.  If I have to deposit a check on Friday, I don't know if it will post by Saturday.  I'll just keep praying that things will work out.

MIgraine

Finally gave in and went to the ER tonight.  The migraine hit a 9.5/10.  Wasn't able to find a ride, so ended up calling the EMTs.  Hated doing it since it really wasn't life or death, and my insurance probably won't pay for it, but I couldn't take it anymore.

I spent 2 hours in the ER.  The first set of shots they gave me did nothing (Toradol and Phenergan) an hour later, they gave me Dilaudid.  That's helping some.  Pain is down to a 7, and I'm going to try to sleep the rest of it off.

I hope everyone is doing well.  I've been pretty much out of touch with everyone as I stress out about the move.  Oh, talking about stress, my bp was 203/88!  That's almost 100 pts higher than normal.  Kristie mentioned that pain can mess with blood pressure, but I surely didn't realize to what extent.

Kat arrives a week from Monday, and we'll see if we can get things organized and clean.

Felt badly enough today that I didn't do laundry, so I'm going to have to sneak in and do it tomorrow even though the laundry room is officially closed.

Well, I'm off to bed, hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

Doctor Report

Saw the Nephrologist today...actually, almost didn't because I'm moving but talked them into it.  They took a lot of samples, and I go for an ultrasound on Friday.  Then I go back to the Dr on the 31st.  He said my kidneys don't look that bad based on the kidney function test, but ultimately, even though it was due to a dye reaction, my dad died cos his kidneys shut down.  Also, the prospect of being on dialysis terrifies me.

Kat will be up here in two weeks, arriving just about now <smiles>.  Hopefully it will be cooler so we can get everything done....right now the heat and humidity are killing me.

I hope the Koesters are doing well, I really miss being in touch with them.  I'll look forward to them being back online when they get to Canada.

Other than that, things have been pretty quiet. Less pain today, which is good.  I go to Social Security tomorrow morning to try to get my business there taken care of.

I'm not sure to whom I am reporting since the only one reading this blog is Julie and she's offline, but when I pass out my new address cards I'll have this blog on it, and maybe someone will actually read and comment.

Stormy

I hate thunder!  I try to think of it as Angels bowling, but when it's really bad, even that doesn't work.  So, here I am after 1am waiting for it to calm down outside.

Spent most of today in bed, and will be heading back soon.  I'm still having a blast with Spotify....listening to lots of songs I haven't heard in years.  Still more though that I can't find.  Guess I'm dating myself from the pre-cd era.

Right now I'm listening to Cher, and will probably go back to bed with her playing, trying to drown out the thunder.

Not much else to say.  Wondering how the Koesters are doing.  Worrying about the move. Doing what I have to do.

Pain and Sleeplessness

Did not sleep well last night...had to get up and take a pain pill.  I hate doing that.  Finally crashed about 4am, got up at 7:30.

Didn't get laundry done again, and still can't lift my arms above my head to either color my hair or get dressed.  Hope I feel better by Church on Sunday.

Lost

The treasury dept lost my deposit.  They transposed number in the account number and my money is out there in the aether somewhere.

I had to resubmit a direct deposit form, and then, when the money magically returns from its journey, they'll redeposit it.

In the meantime, I'm waiting to make my U-Haul reservations, order checks with the new address on it and the 1000 other things I have to arrange before the move.

The heat index hit 126° yesterday....and I had to go out in it!  I don't do heat really well...something to do with a tendency towards heatstroke making me skittish (grins).

The EQP from Cincinnati called me back, and we'll have no problem getting help unpacking.  Gotta call the EQP here and arrange for help loading.  I hate asking for help, but since I can't lift more than 5lbs, I really don't have a choice.

I see the Kidney Specialist on Monday, so that's my next panic spot.  I seem to be going from one to another these days.

I remember my old shirt. It said "If it weren't for stress, I'd have no energy at all"...and, it's true, especially in the heat!

The Koesters have left on their epic journey.  I miss them already, but as Julie pointed out, I'd be leaving them if they didn't leave me first.

I still have faith that this move to Cincy is the best thing for me.  It's just gonna be tough the first few months, but that's ok...I'm a survivor.

Depression Stinks!

I haven't done laundry in a month...I'm almost literally out of clothes to wear...what clothing I have, doesn't match.  I was supposed to get up this morning and do laundry...I didn't..I just couldn't make myself get up.

Same thing with cleaning.  This place looks worse now than it ever did. Kat arrives in 3 weeks, but I can't have anyone over in the shape it's in now...but even that doesn't give me the impetus to DO anything.

Dr Johnson took me off my anti-depressant (the old one made me fall, the new one didn't DO anything), and now I feel like I'm just wallowing.

I'm trying to get everything for the move arranged, but I'm sure I'm forgetting things.  I hate this.  I just want it over already.